Over the past few weeks I have come to realize how close I finally am to my senior year.
The idea of being a senior next year excites me.
However, at the same time it scares me.
I had my degree audit at the beginning of March and this is when it first hit me that I really will be a senior next year and I will be graduating on time.
During my freshman year, I always thought it might be fun to stay around and be a super senior and enjoy a fifth year of college.
However, now thinking about spending an extra year completing college doesn’t sound like much fun at all.
Some days I feel like the past three years have flown by way too quickly and I almost want to rewind time and go back to my freshman year and relive all my experiences over again.
I feel that all my experiences over the past three years have helped shape who I am now and have prepared me for new experiences in my senior year and life after college.
The second realization hit me when I met with my adviser last week to look over classes I will take in my last fall semester.
During my meeting, I remembered how excited and nervous I was to sign up for all the classes I took my very first semester at Baker.
All the same feelings came back to me when looking over classes for my senior year.
Finally realizing that senior year is only a few months away has me excited about a lot of things, but at the same time fearing a lot of things.
I’m excited to be someone that underclassmen can look up to.
I’m excited for all my responsibilities as a leader.
I’m excited to spend my last year getting closer to friends I have known throughout my three years at Baker.
And as always, I’m excited to make new friends.
However, mixed with all this excitement I do have fears.
I fear not being a good role model.
I fear looking for a job.
I fear what my life will look like outside of college.
And I fear not being ready to say goodbye to my life in college and my friends.
I know that by the time August rolls around and fall classes start, I will be prepared and ready to enjoy my final year.
But at this moment, it is almost sad for me to say goodbye to my junior year.<br/>&#160;